What is the next step in my life?

My life today - 12/1/2025 (Sunday)

It is so great that I can record my daily routine every day.

In the morning, I went to work with my family and we had our breakfast at a new place. The Pan mee soup cost RM7 and tea with milk was RM2. I am so grateful that there are restaurants out there offering food at this price. Afer breakfast, we worked in a house where the owner plans to run a homestay business in the future. I learned a lot of things there including its interior design, its structure and more. 

After finishing the work there, we had our lunch at a restaurant nearby. I ordered sichuan mi xian. I would like to record here and emphasize to myself that "PLEASE TRY ANOTHER DISH IN THE FUTURE". The Sichuan Mi Xian there was not bad, but I want to try other food there, like braised pork rice. 

After reaching home, I was having fun with my dogs and had then took a nap after showering. Before the nap, I read "the 5am club". This is the third time I have read this book. I would like to implement the tactics in "the 5am club" into my life, but and I am still struggling with in fighting my sleepiness in the morning. With that, I believe that I can stay be kept motivateding when I read the book for by rereading the book several times until its the contents of the book are marked ingrained inside my mindbrain. 

Guess how many hours long my nap lasted is taking? 3 hours. Having a dream where I played badminton with my village head in my primary school. I could not see the shuttle when it flied flew in the sky and so I could not catch the suttle. Before the end of the game, the other players and I me were invited to eat something. It is abnormal because normally we won't eat before the game is finished. Anyhow, dream is illogical sometimes. It is meaningful for me to record it down because it was my dream today.   

At night, we had pork sate and ikan bakar for our dinner. They offered have flavours like kimchi sate, five-spice sate and original flavour. After having tried them all, I still prefer with the original flavour. 

Now, I am feeling uncertain about my future life on my upcoming life. This is my illusion and it will affect me in enjoying my present moment. Just follow my heart and do whatever that it tells me to do. Keep moving is the way of a peaceful warrior. There is one day where I can reach the door of utmost happiness. 

After I had been called to the bar, I started feeling confused about my future. When I was employed, I had tendered resignation letter for several times. I don't prefer to be employed because I could not pursue my client's interest based on my opinion. Due to Because I was employed, my advice to the client was highly based on my boss's opinions. Sometimes, the advices might be based on commercial factors. I did't like that because that was not the reason when I decided to stay in that career. 

Hence, I had grabbed the opportunity to commence my own firm. I have been running my firm for more than 2 years. I can enjoy the flexibility, the freedom, the joyfulness and many other things. The only thing that I am struggling now is my clientale. My clients were referred by my friends or relatives. Hence, there is a limit there. To gain more explorations, I have joined some community services recently. The clients there are mostly seeking for free advice and some clients don't have the understanding about the importance of being represented by a professional. Along with time, I am getting tired in educating them about its importance. After 2 years, I did not have any loss in my business. But, I did not gain financially as much as when I am an employee. 

With that, what should I do next? I truly love the flexibility now but I need to control myself whenever I would like to buy something or do something that cost money. Which is the way of the life that I want?

From the books that I read, I was advised to do what I should do now and keep moving. When I was afraid on something, I was actually protecting myself from any change. 

To be honest, I don't know how to move next. Creating some contents in my social media to promote my firm? Sending resume and apply some jobs? Applying working holiday visa? 

I don't know how I will be led leaded by my life. So, I wish to try them all. Never try, never know!

I am my own listener, I am my own teacher, I am my own motivator. How great it is when I am still alive today!